Abnormal life because of Eye diseases.

Hi Dhananjay ,
         Thanks a lot for doing this noble service to mankind.I am following path of Brahmacharya to my full might,and i have seen improvement in overall health , including eyesight and other features mentioned by you by Lord's grace.
         I am particularly interested in healing my eyes at the earliest.Due to watching television from very close distance in early childhood,i suffered from Myopia wearing spectacles of -11.0 and -12.0 D.
I have gone through lasik laser eye surgery(someone told my father heavy glasses will be removed) when i was in std. Xth.7 years later,I have multile eye problems such as double vision,not able to drive a vehicle in night due to refraction of light and also partial corneal opacity.
         Now ,I am software professional.I need to work hard to survive.Though my eye diseases have reduced in strength,still they trouble me a lot.
         I cannot see computer from a normal distance.I need to come closer.It looks very awkward when i have to see something on colleague's desk.Sometimes it becomes impossible for me to see things because of it and my productivity hits rock bottom.
         I have completed 10 years of lasik laser operation and nearly 4 years in software field.I see my colleague getting onsite good projects etc.Now sometimes i feel myself useless and thinks  I am stealing money from the organisation.
         Anger , Fear etc. are slowly creeping in from two months..one or two year back,I was very happy.Efforts at Brahmachrya and reading your posts really showed me highest path and i was feeling great joy in it.
         But I got married in Jun 2012.Now, I have much responsibility and i fear a lot of things due to my eye condition.
         I cannot recognise person's face from normal distance,people think that i just neglect them but fact is i have to behave like this.Thanks you a lot for going though all of this ,i am having troubled relationships with my father , brother ,also.
         I wish to be friendly to all but my internal state let me to see everyone selfish now a days.I donot want to fall prey to anger,frustation,etc.Somewhere in my mind , I think for sake of dowry my father got me married.I never wanted to get married.
         Now ,bad thoughts about my father ,brother are entering my mind.I push them hard but they come again and again.Due to this I am not inclined to meditation as I was earlier.
         I think i have described all my life problems till date in this single post :-).Show me right path to head.