Break in Brahmacharya
Question
Today end a long streak of celibacy.
May God forgive me.
Nonetheless i noticed that the sexual urge is very little compared to 2 years ago.
You may say that i am the self, but at the same time i pray, Who am i praying to? I feel bad to go from praying to self enquiry because i feel like i am leaving God to focus on myself.
But i am less attracted to praying and more attracted to enquiry, and not long ago believe it or not while doing it i felt a response like everything i was, was false.
The person that is praying God is false, and do not really exist.
Answer
The one who prays is not the Atman (pure self), but the Ego, which is false. It eventually merges into the self, or God or whatever you wish to call it, following which THAT truth alone remains. Enquiry, prayer, all lead to the truth alone.
ॐ तत् सत्
(That Supreme being is the absolute truth)