Path required for Brahmacharya

Hi Sir.Greetings !!.I have stopped masturbating completely past 7 months.I felt very good as swami vivekananda ( whom i believe very much ) graced me to stop it all of a sudden. My frequency of masturbation in the past was was 5-6times/week but i could stop this suddenly and past 7 months I dont even get sexually attracted by any erotic image.I have been able to completely control lust even in my dreams!.Even in dreams I somehow remember swami vivekananda and all the lust is gone,so wet dreams very rarely. I know this is all because of god's grace. But I have horrible withdrawal symptoms to the extent that I was becoming a completely psycho. But somehow by praying God i did not succumb to my old evil habit. Ofcourse God has been gracing me.But recently its been happening that I feel God is turning away from me. Some unexpected things started happening in my life. I initiallly thought its because of my past Karma. I was an athiest earlier but past 3 years I do believe in God. So in all these 3 years God has been giving help but not completely.I somehow controlled my emotions thinking that one day God will completely lift me up from all my problems and sufferings. So i took this path of celibacy to be closer to God and also to stop damaging my health because of masturbation. But now past few days I feel that God is keeping silent and some of those sufferings are coming back in my life.I am getting frustrated.But to be honest I am not blaming God.I still Trust him a lot.But feels like my life is never gonna change.My karma will never leave me even though i keep praying God.So i became restless, agonised insomniac and all and today i felt anyhow i m going to end up with this suffering so why not masturbate atleast to relieve tension temporarily.I know it is wrong and will apologise God but I am going mad sir.I stumbled upon ur website n read that one has to gradually increase periods of celibacy.But what i did was I instantly stopped masturbating ( wich prevailed in my life for 11 years ).So is this extreme step causing me terrible mood swings ??. what exactly do u mean by gradually increasing period of brahmacharya?? .Do u mean one can cut down masturbation frequency gradually and then stop it or stop it altogether at once ?. what u meant was to keep prolonging the target periods ? in that case I know i have complete control.I do not need to prolong periods.but then y god is silent ?? I am thinking of masturbation only for this reason. is it okay if i masturbate today( aft 7 months )?? but will it bring any big curse ? i am already in depression.please help