Issues faced in practice
Question
Hello Dhananjay bhaiya. Hope you are doing well.
I am explaining my whole situation so that after analysing it you can provide me with best answer.
I am a 19 year old boy from delhi in 2nd year of my graduation. At the age of 17 I got my hands at a book explaining benefits of brahmacharya and disastrous results of masturbation. So I started following brahmacharya(actually it was more of a celibacy than brahmacharya) at that age but couldn't succeed due to lack of knowledge and night falls as I thought that they are breaks and are not going to stop, unaware of the fact that they will diminish and eventually will stop with lapse of time with adherence to perfect brahmacharya life.
Two months ago without adherence to brahmacharya rules I elapsed 15 days without wet dreams(while 2 years ago I was practicing brahmacharya, it was only 18 days without wetdreams). It was a big achievement for me. Then I somehow reached to your answers reading about brahmacharya. Then I got to know so much about brahmacharya. And now it's been two months with only one wet dream which was without any sexual thought and two prostatic juice wet dreams which is very inspiring for me. And now I am getting enormous benefits with the practice of brahmcharya like I have spectacles and I can feel my eyes getting healed from inside, much more physical strength and a slightly clear mind as earlier it used to be very confused.
But I have some querries which are as follows :-
1. Every time lust encounters me(however the force is not as it used to be before 2 months ago. I am not saying I have eradicated lust but its impact is low), I either do mahabandha or read to your answers. In both cases I can feel something is moving upwards from my sex centre to my chest just like steam rises slowly upwards and it feels very good. Is it transmutation of sexual energy?
2. As you have told in your answers that first year is the most important in the practice of brahmacharya but living in this passionate world becomes very difficult to follow all the rules of a brahmacharya life as I think the practice will become much smooth if one goes into forest or himalayas. Like I live with my family, they possess many problems in my practice.
Like they cook food at 9 p.m. and watch
T.V. till 11 or 11:30 p.m. So it becomes a problem for me to wake up at 4:00 a.m. as we all sleep in single room as in other rooms there are no coolers. Also they use onions and garlics in almost all vegetables which is not good for my celibacy practice. Also I cann't tell them as it should be kept secret.
Also some greedy worldly men which are my friends keep aanoying me in money related matters. This keeps my mood off sometimes and I think they also take up energy below chakras. However, I have surrendered myself and my all matters to god but still sometimes they keep arising in my mind.Please guide me how to deal with these situations.
3. As you have told in your previuos answers that an aspirant should indulge in physical exercises to use up excess energy accumulated due to brahmacharya. So I do gyming and weight trainning. Is it good for my brahmacharya practice or not ? Also is there a need to do physical exercise after doing yoga asanas prescribed by you?
4. Please tell me that whether one should do warm up or not before doing yoga asanas ?
5. As I go in a co-ed college, many girls come in dresses which are passionate. My question is that, is it a break or not as I many a times gets a glimpse of them(not by staring but as I look here and there gets a glimpse of them) ? My fear is that in such atmosphere past sexual samskaras will not finish.
6. Sometimes(like 1 or 2 times in a month) in the morning while defacating, 2-3 drops comes up in the urine. It comes only when I put too much pressure while defacating. Is it a break in celibacy? Please tell me how to cure it?
Thank you
May god bless you with enlightenment soon.
Thanks once again
Answer
1. It is the upward movement of Prana (vital energy). When the same moves into the sex center, it becomes sexual energy.
2. One has to face the challenges posed by one's 'Prarabdha karma' (karma that dictates this existence) and emerge victorious. There is no escape. If the techniques suggested are applied to the best extent with devotion to God, the task becomes easier.
It is not that the practice becomes easier if one retires to a forest, for it is not the environment which is the chief obstacle but one's past Vasana-s (tendencies) & Samskara-s (impressions) which follow one even into the forest. Therefore, eradication of these is alone the permanent solution. Then, one is ever at peace, residing in the self as the self, be the location a forest or a shopping center.
If you have surrendered fully to God, why worry? Do you worry about how the bus carries you to your destination after having boarded it? Do you worry whether it feels tired, or whether it has enough fuel? You simply relax and wait till your destination arrives. The same should be the degree of 'Saranagati' (surrender) as regards God. One has to do his Dharma (duty) and then relax without the least worry. Let go of the Ego whose worries and desires are endless.
3. Continue exercising in the gym. Warm up exercises are to be performed before the yogic practice and not later.
4. As mentioned earlier, one's past karma sometimes places him in situations which cannot be escaped from. The way out is to hold on to the Atman (self), which becomes possible only through diligent practice of the methods suggested over many years with God surrender. Hence one should hold on to 'Gnyana' (knowledge of the truth) with 'Bhakti' (devotion to God) at all times.
5. Simply ignore the condition and cling to correct practice. It will go away if the practice is correct.
ॐ तत् सत्
(That Supreme being is the absolute truth)