Raja-Yoga
Question
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Ps: english isn't my first language
I am 21 yo black man(live In canada)
BACKGROUND:
I started abstinence around the age of 17 to detoxify from porn, 2 years later i stumble upon a book, called Practise of Brahmacharya.
My life changed.
Then i was 19 year Old due to friends pressure and society sexual attacks i failed many time. Some of them eventually called me homosexual.
Then i stumbled upon a book called Raja yoga by Swami vivekananda.Now my life changed even more, but i wasnt really practising, again the people In my life pulled me the other way.
Then after ignoring Raja yoga,i Reread the book again. Now serious meditation started, with pranayama.
PRESENT MOMENT:
2 days ago i turned 21 yo. At the start of this year, I went 3 month without sexual activity (i didnt meditate).
This year has been the worst year of my life, i went trough tremendous austerity.
I believe God tried to show me something because it is not normal. I resolve a problem another one arise, i Lost my car, my computer,have to stop school and go work to pay my car tickets.
I gained dispassion, discrimination it was a blessing In disguise.
Without this i would have NEVER turn my life completely to the spiritual.
SPIRITUALITY:
Everything that i read on Yoga is true.
Since i started dharana i see light everywhere, and i verily met some beings who weren't of this life.
QUESTION:
As i am going back to finish school, i am afraid it will take me away from my path to God or the self.
Will it?
Will everything eventually fall into place, where my work wouldn't interfer?i believe if i pray God and finish school(only about 6 month left) and don't give up he'll put me In the adequate circumstance to pursue my practise.
By mid 2017 school should be over, and i'll try to live by myself.
The simple question is:
Will i one day be able to meditate in peace if i build the neccessary circumstance.Or will the World get In my way?
Answer
1. Impediments are the Lords way of making one realize the falsity of the 'Asath' (unreal), so as to correct and merge with the 'Sath' (Reality of one's self). They help the aspirant develop 'Vairagya' (dispassion). The exceptional aspirant, who puts in constant Sadhana overcomes all troubles and attains to incomparable bliss in the course of time.
2. Persevere honestly in the practice, with the devotion and innocence of a child, full of trust and surrender to the Lord. You will progress in school and all will go as required. The silence (meditation) will establish itself. God bless.
ॐ तत् सत्
(That Supreme being is the absolute truth)